February 20, 2012
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Why not?
/begin rant
If anything gets me angry, it's this.
I've never been rejected before. Never.
And for my best friend no less. I mean, I can understand why you would choose him over me, he's a great guy, but I'm not that bad, am I?
I've never, ever been rejected before. And with no words nonetheless. Nothing had to be said. I just knew, everyone knew! You liked him. Even if you wouldn't say it, even if words were not said, it didn't matter.
Honestly, it makes me angry. I won't lie, it feels really bad.
Am I really not good enough for you? Am I that bad?
I have never been rejected before.
And maybe that's it? Is it my ego? Or maybe it's because of the situation. He is my best friend. I'll admit that. And I liked you, I'll admit that.
But only on here will I admit that I'm hurt. Knowing that you like him over me goes beyond my bruised ego. It goes beyond never being rejected.
I liked you, I really did like you, and you chose him.
He's a great guy, he really is, but if would've chose me... I think we could've made each other happy.
Honestly. I believe that.
To be frank, I'm starting to hate him. He's my best friend, but I hate him.
Maybe I hate him because I know he could make you happy too. But that's different.
Is this how nice guys feel? I've never been accused of being a nice guy (and that's probably not a good thing) but I feel like I'm being passed up.
Because I am.
I'm being passed up even though I know it could work.
I'll be real. You're only choosing him for shallow reasons. Am I being bitter? I don't think so. Honestly! I think you chose him because he fits your image of a your boyfriend should look like.
Sorry I'm not taller. Sorry I'm not more korean looking. Sorry I'm not good looking enough for you.
Well, it just comes down to one question really. One question really.
Why not me?
Why not me?
Why him?
/end rant
Comments (6)
Dude this is the worst. I know exactly how you feel though. I remember when I liked this guy but he chose my friend instead of me because I wasn't blonde or short enough. >_> It may be hard now but there are always other people out there that will be a better match for you. :3
@Th3LastUnicorn - haha you're completely right
to be honest, I'm kinda embarrassed I even wrote this. I got home, got emotional (oh man), and vented.
but I guess that's what xanga is for? lol :]
@joooooooooooooo - Don't be ashamed of venting. I think it's awesome. I really like how you write honestly, too. I would just be like, "WHYYYYY meeeeeee" and be done. Haha.
D'aww D:
Reminds me of a guy I use to like.....• 3 • He just strung me along and guess he liked the fact he was being liked. In the end he was probably more interested in my friend than me.
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Thank you for your kind comment on my blog.
I read few of your blog posts ^_^ and they're interesting~
Hope you won't mind me adding you as a friend
@Kayspamm - haha thanks for your kind comment as well :]
and I don't mind at all for adding me as a friend!
I'm glad you did because I'm always too shy to do it first :X lol
rejection is part of life, not just love.
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