April 28, 2012

  • Stringing You Along

    I sat outside of Tea Station staring at the girl in front of me. The coolness and warmth of a summer night was a setting made for a moment like this. A moment where stirred emotions begin to swell and when feelings begin to melt. Still, I hesitated. 

    She had asked, "So, do you want a girlfriend?"

    It was one of those short pauses where thought slows and the contemplations of a lifetime ebb in. 

    'No' would be my usual answer, but this time it was different. I had a new response; a response that was more appropriate. 

    "No, I'm emotionally unavailable."

    We both chuckled at the seemingly innocent half-joke.

    Yet, it was whole-true. Nothing about it was a joke.

    For a while now, I've been some place else. Certainly not here.

    ---

    Life has been normal as of late.

    I know it's bad.

    But why can't I keep myself from stringing you along?

    I'm sorry.