July 25, 2012

  • Gone

    Without much fanfare, D left. 

    Unlike George, we didn't spend the whole weekend together before he left. It was much more fleeting than that. 

    We weren't able to hang out yesterday, or even today. He was too busy packing stuff and getting things in order to hang out, and I think he wanted it that way. D always said that he wanted to leave kicking up at little dust as possible. 

    And he did just that.

    A few words, a text, and he's gone. We didn't have a farewell dinner or a final hug and goodbye. Because of that, I think this goodbye is more sad than George's. With George there was more closure. D and me saw him off at the airport terminal, so I really got to soak in the moment. D's departure was much more abrupt. 

    I thought we would have at least got to hang out with him today. But just like he wanted, there were no formal goodbyes or farewell hugs or any of that jazz. 

    And it's that abruptness that hurts the most. I'm not mad for him for leaving like this, honestly it's the way I'd like to go when I leave for Korea, but it doesn't take away the emotions felt by such a departure.

    The relationships that hurt the most, were the ones that seemed to be so great one day and then non-existant the next. The relationships without any closure, they are the hardest to forget. 

    So D, even though you're gone and this end is a very open one, I'll take that as a positive. We need no closure because I'll see you soon enough. I see that now. 

    Though you may be gone, it's all still the same. We're good friends and that isn't changing. The fun we had will still be there when we hang out again.

    You're gone for now but here forever.