August 4, 2012

  • Let's try another time

    I stared hard.

    At nothing.

    This morning, I decided to give up. That was a good month of trying.

    I got to talk with her again, sooner than I expected, but it just wasn't there.

    "What is love, if not from both sides? What is love, if not reciprocated?"

     

    A tragedy.

     

    I don't love her. I really like her, and maybe it could've become something more.

    But it ends here.

    One more step. I could feel the drop below my feet. If I took one more step, I would truly fall... and hit the ground very hard. Before that happened, I decided to walk away and give up. 

    I'm not going to do this to myself. Not now. 

    Lea, I'm giving up on you. I tried. I prayed. Oh, did I pray. But even though it's on my side, I don't think there's anything on yours.

    I don't think you like me. 

    I don't need to hear it.

    I don't need you to say it.

    I just know. I know.

    It was fun. This month has been a lot of fun. 

    I can't wait 'til the end of the summer. Sorry.

    I don't think it would've mattered to you anyway.

     

    Because I don't think... you like me.