August 12, 2012

  • The end of the story

    "Why is this song in a minor key?"

    Because God is not only in joy but in sadness. 

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    I started writing a long blog entry about how I met her and everything that happened, but I ended up erasing it. Even if I was able to write it all down perfectly, I don't think the message would get across. 

    Let me just put it simply.

    This past month and half has been crazy. 

    I like you Lea, so much.

    I prayed about it, so much.

    I asked God in a way I haven't asked God for anything. 

    What I prayed didn't just span the time of a month and a half, but years prior. It was a prayer that I kept as a child, hid as a teenager, and continue to put faith in as an adult.

    For a second, I thought my prayers were finally being answered. For a brief moment in time, I thought the search was over. 

    I don't think that's the case though. 

    Lea, I like you.

    Lea, I prayed. 

    But you don't like me? I'm pretty sure of it now. Yes, you don't like me.

    You don't need to say it. Sometimes you don't need to say it.

    Where am I going with this dumb blog entry? Keep it simple. Simple.

    I can't keep dragging myself along like this. I'm sorry God, but after another failure my faith is wavering. 

    I'll tell you I like you and end this story. 

    For I already know the words at the end of the story.

    "I'm sorry, Jo. I don't like you."

    The end.