July 16, 2012

  • What cannot be.

    The things that cannot be are always the saddest. Those things that are lost to time, those things that are lost to the past, those things that have no future-- the things that cannot ever be -- they are the saddest.

    Life right now is changing so much. It's so very disorienting. For a long time, everything was calm. The waters were still and the waves docile. It's no longer that way any more. It's the first time, in a very long time, that I can feel an emotional upheaval beginning to hit shore. Life is changing so much. In its most delicate way, my calm waters are being shaken. And what will be left? 

    I don't know. But I do know what cannot be.

    The moments we have had together, all of us, they will be no more. Lost to time, lost in the past, there is no future for us.

    What cannot be in the past. We had a lot of fun. So much fun, and I thank God for that. I thank God that I met all of you. Still, it is so very sad. 

    "We will probably never get this group of people together again, and even if we do the situation will never be the same. The circumstances will be different and this moment in time can never be repeated."

    How true those words were. 

    Still, there is a silver lining... but maybe that's for another post. 

    Right now, I'm just going to let myself sink in this sadness, because the things that cannot be are always the saddest. 

    What cannot be.