January 4, 2013

• Longer blog tomorrow

  I'm lazy right now so I'll recount my Seattle GYC trip tomorrow.

  I do want to talk about one thing though. It's the thing I've blogged quite frequently about the last few months, and this is probably one of the last blogs I'll ever post about her. To be honest, I'm already pretty fatigued by all of it. And when I was just getting over her, I pulled myself back in... and that leads me to Seattle. 

  On new years eve, I finally got the nerve to finally tell her. Of course, it did not go as planned. I did not say everything I wanted to say. I pretty much just said "I like you." and left it at that. 

  There was some conversation mixed in, but it all ended with... "Brother, I'll be praying for you!"

  So basically it went something like this:

  "Hey, I like you!" ---> talktalktalk ---> "Brother, I'll pray for you!"

  The end. 

  Out of all the responses she could give, she had to give that one. The most ambiguous one. The one that could hurt the most. A simple "No, I don't like you." would have been soooo much easier to take. But she just had to say that. 

  I don't know. I want to say more and explain everything that happened, but my hands are cold, and again, I'm lazy. Whatever, she can be with Mark. Or Joseph. Or whomever. I'm just ready to get over all this. 

  Happy new year!!!

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