October 29, 2012

  • All it takes

    One message is all it takes, and I'm in it again.

    Gosh, there's just something about you. Something amazing that I can't get enough of. I thought I finally got over this. I thought I was finally able to think rationally about you.

    We spent ONE weekend together. In reality, we probably talked for only a few hours. And in reality, were those few hours enough to fall for someone? 

    I really don't know a thing about you.

    I know your name.

    I know your face.

    I know your birthday.

    I know that you have two brothers and you love cats.

    I know that your mom lost her job recently.

    I know you have a Canon dslr.

    I know you're vegan.

    I know you're at Weimar. 

    And... what does that all add up to? I might know another dozen random facts about you, but where does it all lead? Somehow it lead me to like you. Still, this is all so frustrating. 

    It's always like this, isn't it? The person that you like the most, doesn't ever like you back. Maybe that's not always the case, but in my life it has been. Haven't we all had a special someone we liked so much knowing that it could never work out?

    But why can't this work out?

    Because you're too far.

    There is a physical distance.

    There is a spiritual distance.

    And there is an emotional distance.

    In other words, you're hundreds of miles away.

    In other words, I'd bring you away from God.

    In other words, you don't like me.

    I haven't told you how I feel, and I know I should have that one weekend we were together. I chickened out though, and now I'm regretting it more than ever. If I just had another chance, I know I'd take it in a second. 

    But here I am again. One message is all it takes, Lea.

    I like you, I like you, I like you.

    Yeah, I'm in it again. I'm in it again.