I like you.

It's kinda weird. I barely know you, but I'm interested.

Isn't that weird?

Yep. Pretty weird. haha

Last night the church youth group had a secret santa, and this is what I got!

Thanks steph! :]

I really like being single.

When you're single nothing can really bring you down. Being single is so very simple. It's so... one-dimensional. And that's a good thing.

... Well, most of the time.

Although being single leaves you with very little vulnerabilities there is just one thing I can't shake because of it:

the loneliness.

Most of the time, when I'm surrounded by friends and family, the loneliness has no place to attack. But in the middle of the night, when everyone is asleep and there is no one to talk to except my own mind, the heavy fact of my singleness weighs down.

Sometimes it would be nice to have someone to talk to even in the middle of the night. Someone who I could just talk nonsense too. Someone who wouldn't mind being woken up in the dead of night to hear my voice.

Because that's something being single can't give.

Still, being single is great.

Most of the time.

This winter break it's all been about work, work, work! It is fun though. I won't say there isn't a lot of play mixed in with the work, but I'd like to play outside of work too.

All of my supposed "party hardy" friends haven't been up to going out lately. :[

Oh well... at least this weekend will be eventful!

at work duddeee!

NICOLE.

I think you might be really good for me. Seriously.

You're pretty, smart, and you like SPORTS. That is frickin' amazing. Unfortunately, I'm going to have to kill this romance before a romance even existed.

I'm sorry. It's sad. I honestly thought we could've been so great for each other, but my mind is telling me you are not the one.

Sucks.

I need to cut it, but I have no clue what to do! ...maybe I'll just shave my head again if I can't think of anything lol

:[ aha

Spent time with the fambam for Thanksgiving, and we also chose our secret santas! Losta fun yo

I just spent the day hanging around the house for black friday. Most of my money was already spent (for various reasons lol), and my car had a flat tire so I decided it would be a nice day to catch up on some sleep.

Overall, a good Thanksgiving and sleepy black friday.

6/10

I'm not getting any younger. I may still look like I'm 16, but I'm not 16. As age starts to creep up on me I begin to feel a slowly rising sense of anxiousness.

I know I'm not the only one feeling it. Some of my friends have voiced the same opinions. The older the get the more single you feel. If you've failed at relationships time and time again, you begin to think to yourself, "Is there something wrong with me?"

If you really think about it, only one of your relationships will succeed. That is, only one of your relationships will end up in marriage.

Many people will say that I'm still too young to think about marriage, but I'm not. Collectively, at this age, we're not too young to be thinking about it. Rather than thinking about it too early, many people procrastinate until it's too late. Then they rush into marriage because the anxiety level that comes with age is too high.

Then half of them get divorced.

It's not like I want to get married now. I'm just thinking about it, and along with those thoughts come the questions.

"Why haven't I been able to sustain a successful relationship?"

"Why am I still single?"

Which both lead to the big question:

"Is there something wrong with me?"

I was talking to one of my best friends recently, and he told me this.

"I think maybe I'm just meant to be alone."

So I began to think, maybe I'm just the same way. We're pretty similar. We both like to talk to girls. We both have dated a few girls. And we both have had a few serious girlfriends.

Yet, they've all failed.

Maybe I'm meant to be alone.

Maybe there's something wrong with me.

/endrant

So I was trying to take a picture of the quintessential asian pose (the super v-sign, with chinky eyes), but I forgot that my webcam was on video and not camera mode. The look of realization at the end explains it all lol

The bobasaur is no more.

cause I can